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So, what do you need right now?
All of this? The going, moving, barren roads and cold nights in the desert? Ask yourself, is what you are doing a need or
a desire?
I think the two things are similar but not the same.

I got into a big conversation about Buddhism with my friend yesterday. I hadn't really thought about it ever and I didn't
exactly know what it was, but he attempted to describe. As I understand it, Buddhism is reaching for a total lack of desire,
of 'want', as it seems. I have a hard time internalizing why someone would do that.
Don't get me wrong, I see the need to be satisfied with where you are. Life would be so much easier if you could decide
to not want, you would not ever be fighting for anything, conflict would be flushed from your system, and you would be
happy letting life pass over and under and through you like some windy river. But would that actually be life?
I am utterly perplexed. I suppose we thrive on challenge. I need to see a light at the end of my tunnel, or my eighteen
million tunnels, and I need to be able to strive for those endings and get there on my own. Otherwise who are you? Just
some thing with no wants that sits and is?
If that is true happiness, I suppose I'd rather be unhappy. If not for those radiantly joyous moments in life that are caused
by yourself, by true gain of something that YOU did and made and created, or by those people that you have allied
yourself with and promised to share your passion with for always, then you would be flat.
Hills and valleys and crevices and a sky that freezes you that you can't reach and never will, but

I wish I was there with you. I really do.